Ive come across so many things in my life ive met crazy amazing people, and ive face difficult challenges along the way, but with all that being said i think there is soo much more to come! And i cant wait for it to happen but at the same time im a little scared for it, i dont why i am, but i know there is people who will help me go tru my life, well look at me ranting lol but i know all this makes sense to me:) so bottom line is im ready as i can get to face all of this, with my chin up and walking tall and just READY!! so god hit me with all you’ve got!! Cuz i know you will be there to guide me and help me with all the challenges your gonna give!! So there im done k bye!
Like the trees need the earth. Like the night needs the moon. Like the stars need sky. Like the guitar needs the tune. My world needs you…
The wall that you have built is now in between us, we started being friends to the point where you become one of the closes and best friend i have! Now im willing to bet all that so i can feel what is being in a relationship all about again, you have admitted that you do like me as well but the foundation of our friendship has gotten in the way for us, and the wall you have built also has gotten in the way, now im here sitting in my car begining to think if all of this is ok?? Meaning will it take time for you to take down the wall or will it just stay there? As for me ive told myself never to fall for a friend ever again cause there are so much at risk, but for some reason you got me thinking of why not take one last risk give it another try, and now thats what i am doing, but since the day i have told you how i felt till now ive come to see that no matter what im gonna do this no matter how high that wall is i will break tru it, if i cant i will climb it…i dont wanna feel the “what if” again, i dont wanna lose out on you! Period!
Uhhh i dont know where to begin! I guess im just so so so lost, so far in my life i thought that if i live for the moment amd not plan things it would benefit me! But now i can see that every desicion i have made every road i have taken was all wrong! I wish that i can go back in time and make the right ones! I dont even know who i am i guess i never did! Ive talked about life to others friends most of all and telling them that live everyday every minute as if it was your last day! But im here now thinking what ive been saying are they all true have i been giving the wrong advice it seem like i dont know what life really is. Idk!! Ugh!! Now im here sitting in the dark thinking on what i should be doing with my life! It seem like everything i do has to satisfy other people they have so much expections from me! They want me to be this person that i dont wanna be! But then i start to think is that person they want me to be is better than whatever i am now?? Sometimes im so jealous of other people to me i see that they have so much happiness in there life! They can get up in the morning with bright smile in there face! As for me i wake up with thinking its just another old simple day again i feel like it just goes in cycle for nothing ever amazing happens no moments i can cherish. Sometimes i feel like im living in a world of just me no body else i feel like im all alone in this world! Idk! Im just really so confused and lost about everything!
Omfg really why is everyone on my ass!!! I do everything they want me to do, but then i still get bitch at, they expect so much from me, every little thing i do in my own life i get lectured!! For crying out loud im not a kid anymore it so fucking stupid!! Ugh!! its like they just want me to be imprison in this fucking house just be a loner in my life! Bitch!!! Im so annoyed right now!! Im done with there high expections from me, im just gonna keep doing me and screw them!!! Ima go strong with my life and ill show them that i did it by myself period!!!! Fucking filipino family i swear is soo annoying at times man ugh!!!
I wish I was a teddy bear, that lay upon your bed, so everytime you cuddled it, you cuddled me instead.